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Dear LiveJournal,

Lean into this letter. Read it like a memory, an invitation, an incantation.

Eight years ago, you and I met. You: young, reckless and insecure. Me: your mirror image. We believed writing could connect us, shape us, make us real. We believed, like early loves do, that love meant symmetry and disclosure, rather than seeing the god in each other, and the fear. Oh, how we played at love then: revealing too much, then retreating to silence, making a sideshow of our pain. Here, I am busted up and brokenhearted. Here, I am lonesome. Here I am alone.

Is it something I wrote? That's probably self-centered, but really, do you miss the desperation with which I loved you then? The hunger? We were fierce in our love, if unpracticed. Please don't go. Pleading is uncharacteristic and probably unfair, but baby listen, I gave you so many of my sentences. I typed until my fingers ached and I will.

Sure, there's nothing more poetic than an ending, but don't leave just for the sake of art. Don't leave for the sake of lesson. You don't gotta promise me forever, just stay awhile, let me emboss these words on the curve of your hip, make you forget you ever thought to go.

Love,
Katie

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unearthingbone
Jan. 8th, 2009 10:28 pm (UTC)
I want to be LiveJournal so this letter, achingly beautiful and tongue-and-cheek, could be written to me.
tesseractive
Jan. 8th, 2009 10:30 pm (UTC)
Yerp. We're all feeling it. There's going to be a great exile of angst and fanfiction if it really goes down.

I used this software to archive my journal--if you haven't done it already. LJBook has a huge queue but this one worked pretty quickly.
meaning_making
Jan. 9th, 2009 12:29 am (UTC)
Does it archive comments, too?
flavoredcat
Jan. 8th, 2009 11:36 pm (UTC)
mmmm.... oh LJ, I love you too.

indeed. yikes. do you know if we would love all the archives too?

FREAKING OUT! let's start printing out pages NOW
meaning_making
Jan. 9th, 2009 12:11 am (UTC)
I'm going to archive both of mine, hopefully tomorrow. Nervous.
flavoredcat
Jan. 9th, 2009 12:22 am (UTC)
this is like a project we have never seen before. this is an archeological dig and project unlike anything anything anything.

shit where to begin?

remember when my LJ had the wrong dates on entries for like a year before I fixed it??

good GOD!
meaning_making
Jan. 9th, 2009 12:25 am (UTC)
Mmm Hmm. I'm not trying to be an alarmist, just be safe. Hopefully, our precious LJ is safe.
flavoredcat
Jan. 9th, 2009 12:36 am (UTC)
well I certainly am trying to be an alarmist! time to move into bunkers and hide the bunnies and stock pile weapons! this is Armageddon!
meaning_making
Jan. 9th, 2009 12:40 am (UTC)
Have you been spinning?
flavoredcat
Jan. 9th, 2009 01:39 am (UTC)
why.... yes! spinning lies and tall tales and conspiracy theories!
kdtb
Jan. 9th, 2009 04:08 am (UTC)
OMGOMG WHAT? Jesus... thank god you know whats going on... I need to save mine
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